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$25 GIVEAWAY- Complicate Me by M. Robinson

$25 GIVEAWAY- Complicate Me by M. Robinson

Complicate Me

M. Robinson

Published on 11-14-2015

Genres: Contemporary, Romance
It was complicated, it was also just the beginning.
A decision.
A simple choice.
There is always that one moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend that we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
Pretending was better than knowing the truth...
I. Ruined. Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
All I did was complicate us.

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My brown eyed girl sat on our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees, hiding her face. The tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably, only heightening the deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing second. It was such an intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone, especially me. Alex didn’t cry. I watched her bawl for the first time in my life. I had never seen anyone cry like that before, and it shook me to my core, slicing me whole, and making me feel like I was dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my grave.
There was no going back…
No erasing.
No do overs.

What I witnessed tonight would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and forever see her falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own eyes and I found it hard to breathe.
Hard to move.

My feet were glued to the goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl, violently sucking in air that wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear that fell from her face becoming pieces of me. Circulating through my veins and blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her sadness and sorrow and of my broken promises. No beginning or ending to her cries, just an infinite current, flooding the hole where my heart should be. The shadow of her trembling petite body reflected off the walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Mine.
Hers.
Ours.
Portrait of happy loving couple

Growing up in a small town you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told, town gossip. You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies, friends, and especially family all shared wisdom and advice that you think you will never need.
Bunch of bullshit.

They say you have that one moment in life where things could have been different, that one moment that changes the course of your life or the direction you could have taken. That one moment that could forever change you and everything you wanted to be true, everything you wanted to believe.
One simple decision could alter your entire future.
My entire world.

I would forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed everything. This is the moment where I took another direction, another road that led me to my own demise.
My own regrets.

I should have walked in there. I should have apologized. I should have begged for her forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her again. I should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the way she had our entire lives.
But I didn’t…
I did none of those things…
Not one.
Nothing was said between us.
No words.
No actions.

I was a coward and couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look into her eyes and know that I had hurt her. That I had disappointed her. That I ruined her love and lost her respect for me.
The boy who promised he would never hurt her.
The boy who swore he would always protect her.
The boy who vowed he would never let anything happen to her.
That same boy was me.
I was the reason she was bawling.
I was the reason she was hurt.
I was the reason she was broken.

She knew the truth. It had finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I was hers. I ruined the one good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my heart was bleeding out for me in a way that I had never seen before. The house was no longer our safe place.
I had brought my hurricane with me…
I couldn’t risk the possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there and admitted my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t look at me the same anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.

My brown eyed girl.
The girl that I had loved all of my life.
The same girl that I would love for the rest of my life.
Alexandra.

I gave her the only comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and left. I walked down the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on and drove my sorry ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at myself in the mirror. I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t cause her pain, and that she didn’t know the truth. That I didn’t see her sobbing and that she wasn’t even bawling to begin with. That we were still just best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
My Half-Pint and her Bo.
It was better than knowing…
I ruined us.

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About M. Robinson

M. Robinson

M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.

She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.

She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.

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100 Responses to “$25 GIVEAWAY- Complicate Me by M. Robinson”

  1. Lori White Lazzara

    I have been in one complicated relationship. Waiting to see how it works out! 😉

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  15. heatherzilla

    No, I have not been in a complicated relationship. That is why I love to read about them.

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  28. Candy Beck

    yes. it was one I needed to get out of and did. no body should have to endear abuse!!!

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  32. Kelly

    I think most relationships have some sort of complication, even the ones you start out thinking are simple.

    Reply

  33. Tricia Bartley

    Ummm maybe when I was younger..been married for 29 years now..no complication now lol

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  38. Chandra Crawford

    Yes I have been in a complicated relationship, one I knew was doomed to fail. But I was going to get my heart broken either way, so I jumped in with both feet and enjoyed it while I could.

    Reply

  39. Brandy Lucero

    No. I have never been in a complicated relationship, but I sure love reading about them! Thanks for the great giveaway and the excerpt! I really love the sound of the story!

    Reply

  41. Marcy Meyer

    Every relationship can be complicated, so Yes, I definitely have had ones more complicated than the others.

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  50. Wendy

    Yes I’ve definitely been in a complicated relationship before. It was the best and worst all rolled into one.

    Reply

  66. Barbara Montag

    Oh yes I’m been in a complicated relationship several times.
    And I did come away having learned some things.
    thank you

    Reply

  68. QuenKne Ma

    Yes, but I feel that if you’re in a serious relationship, it’s impossible not to have some complicated times.

    Reply

  73. Melissa Quintanilla

    Actually no I haven’t. My first real boyfriend is now my hubby for 18 years =D

    Reply

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